On Finding Confidence

One important key to success is self-confidence.  An important key to self-confidence is preparation.

If it had not been for the wind in my face, I wouldn’t be able to fly at all.

-Arthur Ashe

Three to four inches heels have never inhibited my ability to confidently strut my long lean legs across a room…. that is until today!

After shredding my shoulders this morning, I moved on to my first official posing session!  In the locker room, I changed into my very short and tight shorts (I need to see my body, sweat pants won’t work).  The whole time, I’m thinking about folks, particularly the guys checking out my ass as I creep to a more private area to practice.   “Baby’s got back?”  Yup-always did!  Lol! But I have never been the type to wear ridiculously tight fitting clothes that bring unnecessary attention to myself.

You’re probably thinking,

She’s worried about walking across a gym floor in tiny shorts, when in two and half months, she’s gonna be half-naked on a stage in front of a 100 or more people!”

I know– I thought the same thing.  Mentally, I’m not quite there yet, but I am work in progress.

The chill of the room took my mind off my outfit and shifted my focus to my trainer’s instructions.  The mirrors are perfect for visual learners like me.  Walk with confidence!  Walk like you own the room!  I thought I was, but I was not.

Over-thinking movements and instructions got me feeling a little discombobulated.  Chin up, hand positioning, shoulders down, soft elbows, foot placement, transitions, smile……   Woo child… I’m dizzy just thinking about it!   Once again, I find myself extended beyond my comfort zone.  Hello?  Where the heck am I?

Out of corner of my eye, I could see gym members peeping in the room. Oh my gosh, can they see my tiny spider veins and other imperfections?  My inner voice shouts, Get over it girlfriend!!  Brene Brown’s, Vulnerability discussion on SuperSoulSunday pops in my head.

Vulnerability is the birthplace of innovation, creativity and change.
Brené Brown

Courage starts with showing up and letting ourselves be seen.
Brené Brown

Vulnerability sounds like truth and feels like courage. Truth and courage aren’t always comfortable, but they’re never weakness.
Brené Brown

Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it. Embracing our vulnerabilities is risky but not nearly as dangerous as giving up on love and belonging and joy—the experiences that make us the most vulnerable. Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.
Brené Brown

Empowered by Brown’s wisdom, my determination, my coach’s encouragement, and positive reinforcement I was guided across the room again, and again, and again, until I improved.  Posing is more involved than it looks, so is life; I tell my kids this all the time.  Today I took a dose of my own medicine.

What’s next?  My competition shoes are ordered– they should be in any day now. Meanwhile, practice, practice, and more practice.   I should have gotten pictures today, but my mind was occupied.  Oops!

Talk to you later and have a fabulous day!

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